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I've had a lot of regrets in my life.

One of them is the fact that, despite having seen the swelling of your feet and knowing that you needed medical attention, I didn't feel there was any urgency. You always told me that it was nothing to worry about anyway and that you don't feel anything painful, so I left it at that.

Another regret is that I never got to visit you at the hospital, never even got to talk to you face to face before you died, never even got to go at the cremation. It wasn't as though I was left with a lot of choice, though; the pandemic was raging, no vaccines were yet developed, I'm immuno-compromised, and I have 2 kids at home whose health and welfare are more important than mine for a long time now.

Still.

I wish I could have done better by you.

I wish there was something more, anything, that I could have done.

I wish I could have given you that one last hug before you had to go.